Thursday, December 30, 2010

Goodbye 2010

Goodbye 2010 and welcome 2011. Less than 48 hours we will celebrate a new year. So guys, I just wanna wish all of you a happy new year and hopefully this coming year will bring a new hope and forget about your past, go for the next goal! I keep reminding my self there are always other mountains to climb in my life and do not stop just like others did when they reach the top. Yes, do not stop climbing guys, it's new year. So many things to achieve for coming year.

Sunday, December 12, 2010


Welcome December! Lama sudah saya tidak "ber-BloG"... Hehehe, due to some reasons terpaksa saya bercuti2 seketika daripada ber-blog. Anyway, I'm here and it's December guys! What do you think? :) yeah, it's the month of joy! Sekelip mata saja sudah sampai ke penghujung tahun. Tinggal beberapa hari saja kita akan menyambut Tahun Baru. Nah...memang tidak terasakan masa cepat sangat berlalu. Pejam celik pejam celik sudah pun bulan 12.

Apa apa pun mesti banyak perkara yang berlaku sepanjang tahun ini kan. Apa pun berlaku biarlah semuanya menjadi sesuatu yang sentiasa menguatkan kita dalam perjalanan yang seterusnya. Let's it be a great lessons to us. Honestly, this year is a very hard for me but I thanks God for being so good to until I can go through all the obstacles that I face up. God is good all the time. Begitu besar sekali kasih Tuhan yang tidak pernah meninggalkan kita.

Sudah sampai ke pertengahan bulan December. I'm sure all of us busy preparing something to celebrate Christmas. Well, this year I am not busy preparing all the stuff like I did last year. This year we just celebrate Christmas with simple way. My brother and sister in law is not here to celebrate Christmas with us. So, it's kinda sad.

What I love bout December is.... Yeah, Christmas. Caroling, Christmas tree, presents, Christmas eve. Auwww... What a wonderful December isn't? I can't wait for caroling :) This coming Wednesday, we'll have our caroling at Bintangor. All church will involve in this caroling. So yeay! Yippiea! I just can't wait for coming Wednesday :) Hehehe...

So, hopefully you guys also enjoy your caroling and yeah, lets enjoy the spirit of the joys here guys!

Friday, November 19, 2010

My Big Family

My lovely family in Christ. A family is a little world that created by love. Its amazing to be among people who come from different background, different races, different languages but we share 1 love. And that make us as a family.

Thursday, November 18, 2010

My only Wish

My only wish this year...
So, what is yours?
Yeah, maybe it is too early for Christmas feelings.
But, yeah! I am in Christmas mode.

Monday, November 15, 2010

The First Part of the Journey

Until now I can't find a words to thanks all of you. When I reach this level, I know it's not because of my own strength. It's because of your prayers and I believe God gave me strength when He hear your prayers. Thank you guys for being my FAMILY. Hugs for all of you. I really thanks God for giving me such a lovely and caring family as all of you. I know we are not blood siblings but God's love show us that is not the obstacle for us to take care of each others and share our love. No, that is not the obstacles for us to love each others. I am glad because God unite us. What a very Big Gift from God above. And I really thanks God for hearing every single words that we said. God is good all the times. And yes, He always keep His promises. How can I say that I am poor when God give me everything that I need. How can I say that I am weak when He give me strength to wake up every morning. Such a wonderful journey that I have with Him. Thanks my big family of SIB Bintangor :)

His ways are Not our ways

Romans 8:28
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

Roma 8:28
Kita tahu sekarang, bahawa Allah turut bekerja dalam segala sesuatu untuk mendatangkan kebaikan bagi mereka yang mengasihi Dia, yaitu bagi mereka yang terpanggil sesuai dengan rencana Allah.

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Kerana aku milikMu...

Kerana aku milikMu, kerana aku tahu Engkau yang mendengarkan segala doaku, Engkau yang mengetahui segala permasalahanku. Kerana Engkau yang berhak campur tangan dalam hidupku. Aku menjadi milikMu, anugerah yang terbesar pernah aku terima dalam hidupku. Terima kasih Tuhan.

Menjelang akhir tahun 2010 dan syukur aku masih diberi peluang untuk menikmati hari-hariku dengan penuh makna. Melihat setiap ciptaanNya dan sehingga saat ini masih teguh berdiri untuk melayaniNya. Satu penghormatan terbesar dalam hidupku untuk membawa namaNya. Hari demi hari aku belajar begitu banyak tentang kehidupan dan mana mungkin aku akan berada pada tahap ini jika bukan keranaMu Tuhan. Terima kasih buat ANUGERAH yang begitu indah ini dalam hidupku.

Terima kasih kerana sentiasa mengajarkan aku merendah diri dan mengucap syukur buat semua yang telah disediakan bagiku. Buat segala Kekuatanku yang datang daripadaMu. Terima kasih Tuhan. Engkau yang setia menyertai aku. Sampai saat ini aku sentiasa merindukan penyertaanMu Tuhan. Ajar aku untuk terus merendah diri dihadapanMu. Untuk terus punya kerinduan melayaniMu. Berkongsi kasihMu dengan yang lain dan menyalurkan semua berkat-berkat yang ada padaku untuk jiwa lain yang belum lagi mengenalMu. Terima kasih Bapa buat semuanya yang telah kau sediakan untukku....

Saturday, October 23, 2010


May dream touch your heart and your soul. Tonight will be your best night to dream. It's time for magical and fantasy. Happy journey into dream's world. Good night all!

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Turn to stone

One of my favorite song. "Turn to stone" by Ingrid Michaelson. This song was featured on one of Grey Anatomy's series. Which is one of my favorite drama too. It's just a simple song but honestly I really think that this song really touch me.


I can see the craziness of this world right now. So much unpredictable things happened. Well, what else can we say. This is the REAL WORLD. There were few things make me thinking that this world drastically changes. The upside down of this world. Few days ago, i read about this news. Well, maybe this is not a big issue but think of it logically, I really guess that World is INSANE. What I'm talking about is man was raped by women. OK, sounds like funny. But if I not mistaken, that was the 5th case was reported. Normally we heard that women raped by man, but now you can see what happen. So, wherever you go, be careful either man or woman. I just can't imagine how's things like this happened. Maybe this will not surprise us anymore next time. This is the new beginning of insane world. So, be prepare with whatever that will come to us next time. You, me and they, we all can't predict what will happen.

Thursday, October 7, 2010

Treasure in our life?

Sometimes I really don't understand why people keep complaining about their life. Or should I say that they never feel thankful of everything that they have right now? I can't get it. Why should you compare your life to others people when actually you don't even know what they get through. Well, you don't have to compare your self to them because you never knew what they have to face. Be thankful with what you have right now.

You have your family, your car, you friends, your job and so many things in your life. So what else do you want? Your money never enough for you ? Is that what you really want? Money? Okay, lets me tell you. That's not everything. I know money is important, but don't you get it? When you are too busy to chase it, slowly, very slowly until you never knew it, you will ignore everything around you. And slowly, you have no times with your family and friends.

I'm sure you don't want to forget about your parent's anniversary, or your wife/husband's birthday or maybe the day that your child graduates. Those precious moments, don't ever miss it because you can't take it back. Be there when your family members need you. Accompany your son/daughter when they need you to choose their favorite clothes. Help your parents when they're too tired to prepare the dinner. Every moments that you spend with them is something you cannot turn back if you lost it. Can you imagine that?

You'll keep complaining that you are busy. The thing is you never can satisfy your will if you never learn how to appreciate everything that you have . Don't you ever realize that it's YOU, you are the one that make yourself busy. You are the one that make your life priceless. Wealth is important but that's not everything in this world. When you lost everything, you will realize that the most important things that time is WHO beside you :) Stop comparing yourself to others and stop chasing for priceless things in your life. It's not wrong to have everything in your life but you have to remember that to be happy you don't have to get everything, all you need to do is learn how to appreciate everything and every single moment that you have.

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Letting go....

I'm so in love with him. I just can't imagine how's my day without hear his voice. He's the man that I really trust and I just take a risk to give all my love to him. He's the one that I thought worthy to be my love. But that was a year ago. Remembering everything about him makes me realize that love is not all about what you wish or dreams of. Sometimes, letting go is the best decision to make for both. Maybe it's hurt but yes, that's what we should learn from LOVE.

Letting go is one of the hardest lesson in my life. But that was what I learned from our relationships. The moment he said that "Goodbye" to me, I feel like nothing happen. I just blur and I don't know what should I say to him. But then I managed to say goodbye to him and said, "It's ok and I'm fine". Deep inside it was too painful for me. A day after he said goodbye, I only know it's hard for me to accept what was happened. For a moment I just can't breathe and stupidly I cried. It was hurt, but that's the only way I can say that I love him. I believe I have learned a lot of things from my past relationship. True love doesn't have a happy ending, because true love never ends. Letting go is one way of saying I love you. Letting go is not the end of the world, it's the beginning of new life. I should thanks him for teaching me such a great lessons in my life.

Thursday, September 30, 2010

DIA baik...

Berbagai masalah kita hadapi setiap hari, bukan? Kadang-kadang kita gembira, kadang-kadang kita cemas. Kegagalan sering membawa suasana suram, kecewa, yang tidak jarang disertai dengan air mata. Namun, sering pula kita alami bahwa kepahitan dapat menjadi dorongan untuk mencapai sukses. Dari kegagalan, orang belajar menimba hal-hal yang baik. Dan orang ini tidak canggung apabila kesulitan-kesulitan itu menerpa hidupnya.

Menjadi orang Kristen tidak berarti bahwa kita akan dibawa melalui kehidupan yang penuh kemudahan. Hidup itu penuh dengan perjuangan. Berbagai rintangan dan kesulitan akan kita hadapi tatkala kita mengikut Kristus. Jika dasar iman kita lemah, maka kita akan mudah terombang-ambing. Kemampuan kita terbatas bukan? Tanpa pertolongan Tuhan, kita tidak akan mampu menghadapinya. Tuhan sering juga memakai kesulitan-kesulitan dalam hidup untuk meningkatkan iman kita. Melalui campur tangan Allah, kehilangan-kehilangan diubah-Nya menjadi berkat baik untuk kita, demikian juga bagi orang lain.

Betapa terhibur dan menguatkan ketika kita mengetahui bahwa dalam segala hal, bahkan dalam kesulitan kita, Allah turut bekerja untuk mendatangkan kebaikan bagi kita yang mengasihi Dia (Roma 8:28). :)

Sunday, September 26, 2010

All things new

So here I am again. I really miss my blog and seriously I don't know what made me left my blog for a long time. For sure, I don't have any reasons to leave my blog (but I knew the main reason is I am so LAZY). I really loves blogging and yes, I realize that. I just can't stop blogging even though sometimes, I am too lazy to drop any words here.

Next week Dino will go to India, yeah to further his study there. Hopefully he can fit himself there. I can't imagine what will he face there, but we pray that he can take care of him self. 5 years in India? Well, that will be very tough. We will miss you lil bro :) And we pray that this 5 years you will be more mature. So see you soon Mr. doctor!!!

And we really work hard these few weeks because our church have to move to other place. For sure, we will miss our old place. So, lets pray so we don't have any problems at this new place.

Monday, September 6, 2010

Mengejar HadirMu

Bapa, ajarkan kami untuk senantiasa mensyukuri apa yang terjadi dalam hidup ini terlebih ajarkan kami untuk berharap dan bersandar hanya kepada Mu sebab hanya Engkau yang perduli akan hidup kami, Engkau yang selalu datang sebagai Allah, Bapa dan sahabat bagi kami, dan Engkaulah sumber kekuatan di hidup kami. Amien

Friday, September 3, 2010

Be blessed

I pray for you today is that you trust and always obey, On His name keep calling, He'll keep you from falling, He'll supply all the answers if you stand in faith and trust Him to make a way. I want you to be blessed as I am :) Just let go, let God.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Saturday, August 21, 2010

Mr. Flu....

My flu is getting worse and I cannot sleep. I don't know until what time I will awake, but for sure I cannot close my eyes because I feel so uncomfortable. I guess the weather is not so good for me now :( and that is the main reason I am flu right now. Hopefully this Mr FLU will get rid from me as soon as possible...Just received a call from someone right now :) Thanks for calling and bringing Mr SMILE to me...LoL. I know every time this person calls me, there's something he say make me smile! Thank you very much for that!

Thursday, August 19, 2010


2 Corinthians 5:6-8 -- "So we are always confident, even though we know that as long as we live in these bodies we are not at home with the Lord. That is why we live by believing and not by seeing. We live by faith, not by sight."

I believe without FAITH we cannot do anything. Without FAITH, we just nothing and we lost. How rich you are, if you have no FAITH, you are nothing. We just like an empty glass without water. It's my responsible to fill my glass with water.

Reaching for the stars...

Stars, too beautiful and impossible to touch it. But at least I know it's out there. The light of the stars enough to make me smiles and believe that God prepared a lot of things for me outside there. So much things unexpected. I'm not sure if I can reach it but I can sure that the stars always there....And I said to myself "There is no need to reach high for the stars. They are already within you - just reach deep into yourself!"

Sunday, August 15, 2010

Thank You Lord

There's a roof up above me, I've a good place to sleep.
There's food on my table, and shoes on my feet.
You gave me Your love, Lord, and a fine family.
Thank you, Lord, for Your blessings on me.

I know I'm not wealthy and these clothes are not new,
I don't have much money, but Lord, I have You,
And to me You're all that matters tho' the world may not see.
Thank you, Lord, for Your blessings on me.

Monday, August 2, 2010

Be happy...

Be happy with what you have:

Should you find it hard to get to sleep tonight, just remember the homeless family who has no bed to lie in.

Should you find yourself stuck in traffic, don't despair: There are people in this world for whom driving is an unheard of privilege.

Should you have a bad day at work, think of the man who has been out of work for years.

Should you despair over a relationship gone badly, think of the person who has never known what it's like to love and be loved in return.

Should you grieve the passing of another weekend, think of the woman in dire straits, working twelve hours a day, seven days a week to feed her children.

Should your car break down, leaving you miles away from assistance, think of the paraplegic who would love the opportunity to take that walk.

Should you notice a new gray hair in the mirror, think of the cancer patient in chemo who wishes she had hair to examine.

Should you find yourself at a loss and pondering what is life all about, asking, "What is my purpose?", be thankful. There are those who didn't live long enough to get the opportunity.

Should you find yourself the victim of other people's bitterness, ignorance, smallness or insecurities, remember: things could be worse. You could be them!
"Yes." He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can."
I left the forest and bring back this story. I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on you. He will never give up on you.

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Hadiah terindah dalam kehidupan (1)

Duduk seorang diri di sini menyedarkan saya ada satu hadiah yang paling bernilai dalam kehidupan kita. KEHADIRAN...Sedar atau tidak KEHADIRAN seseorang dalam kehidupan kita banyak mempengaruhi kehidupan kita. Believe me, you'll be more happy when someone that you love be there for you. Yes, I admit that we can email, call or SMS each other, but it's totally different when you really there with the person that you love. Your presence mean a lot for them. So, jadikan KEHADIRAN anda sebagai satu kebahagian kepada orang yang benar2 memerlukan anda.

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Every step is a gift...

As I step through life, there are many things in this world I can't understand. But I believe, there are many things that I learned and this will keep continuing. Every step that I take is a new world and for that I believe that I learn to appreciate every step that I take. I always remind myself to appreciate every moments in my life because I scare...What if one day I sleep and suddenly the next morning I never wake up. What I learned today, the value of life is not determined by how we died, but how we lived and the human wealth is not what we get, but what we gave to others.

Monday, July 12, 2010

Everything Happens For a Reason

Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there... to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or help figure out who you are or who you want to become. You never know who these people may be but when you lock eyes with them, you know at that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way.

And sometimes things happen to you that may seem horrible, painful and unfair, but in reflection you realize that without overcoming those obstacles you would have never realized your potential, strength, willpower or heart.

Nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck.

Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity..... all occurs to test the limits of your soul. Without these small tests, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere, safe and comfortable but dull and utterly pointless.

The people you meet affect your life. The successes and downfalls that you experience can create who you are, and the bad experiences can be learned from. In fact, they are probably the most poignant and important ones.

If someone hurts you, betrays you or breaks your heart, forgive them because they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to whom you open your heart to.

If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because they are teaching you to love and open your heart and eyes to little things.

Make every day count.

Appreciate every moment and take from it everything that you possibly can, for you may never be able to experience it again.

Talk to people you have never talked to before, and actually listen.

Let yourself fall in love, break free and set your sights high.

Hold your head up because you have every right to.

Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't believe in yourself, no one else will believe in you.

Create your own life and then go out and live it..
(Kumpulan Renungan Harian. )

Sunday, July 11, 2010

The Most Beautiful Heart

One day a young man was standing in the middle of the town proclaiming that he had the most beautiful heart in the whole valley. A large crowd gathered and they all admired his heart for it was perfect. There was not a mark or a flaw in it. Yes, they all agreed it truly was the most beautiful heart they had ever seen. The young man was very proud and boasted more loudly about his beautiful heart.

Suddenly, an old man appeared at the front of the crowd and said, "Why your heart is not nearly as beautiful as mine." The crowd and the young man looked at the old man's heart. It was beating strongly, but full of scars, it had places where pieces had been removed and other pieces put in, but they didn't fit quite right and there were several jagged edges. In fact, in some places there were deep gouges where whole pieces were missing. The people stared How can he say his heart is more beautiful they thought! The young man looked at the old man's heart and saw its state and laughed. "You must be joking," he said. "Compare your heart with mine, mine is perfect and yours is a mess of scars and tears."

"Yes," said the old man, "Yours is perfect looking but I would never trade with you. You see, every scar represents a person to whom I have given my love - I tear out a piece of my heart and give it to them, and often they give me a piece of their heart which fits into the empty place in my heart, but because the pieces aren't exact, I have some rough edges, which I cherish, because they remind me of the love we shared.

Sometimes I have given pieces of my heart away, and the other person hasn't returned a piece of his heart to me. These are the empty gouges - giving love is taking a chance. Although these gouges are painful, they stay open, reminding me of the love I have for these people too, and I hope someday they may return and fill the space I have waiting. So now do you see what true beauty is?" The young man stood silently with tears running down his cheeks. He walked up to the old man, reached into his perfect young and beautiful heart, and ripped a piece out. He offered it to the old man with trembling hands. The old man took his offering, placed it in his heart and then took a piece from his old scarred heart and placed it in the wound in the young man's heart. It fit, but not perfectly, as there were some jagged edges. The young man looked at his heart, not perfect anymore but more beautiful than ever, since love from the old man's heart flowed into his.

They embraced and walked away side by side...

If you begin the day with love in your heart, peace in your nerves, and truth in your mind, you not only benefit by their presence but also bring them to others, to your family and friends, and to all those whose destiny draws across your path that day.

Thursday, July 8, 2010

Why do people judge others so much?

Why do people set a standard to judge others? The way their look, their lifestyle, their weight, their work, their sexuality? For me, it is bad when someone judges you incorrectly when they only knows little about you. Sounds funny, but that always happen! I mean, just look around you, whatever you or wherever you go, people will keep their eyes on what you do or what you wear today or may be who go out with you... Well, maybe they don't have any works to do, but isn't that funny when you are busy judging others and at the same times you can't take care of yourself. Sometimes I ask myself, what make these people happy when they judge and keep talking about others. Is that will make themselves feel better than others? I believe only God and yourself can judge who you are. Whatever others say about it, it's ok. You shouldn't feel bad when people judge you. You must be glad cause those people really 'care' bout you. Haha :p just kidding. You are the only one who have full access to your intention, your beliefs, your core values and dreams thus you are the only one who can judge himself...So, forget it, forget how people judge you :p they don't have THAT QUALIFICATION to judge you! Remember that...

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

It's hard to turn back...

I really shocked today when I receive a message from my friend and said that she really miss us. Even though we always online and connect with FB or YM, I can feel that she really need me and my friends right now. Few weeks ago, I chatted with her and she said that now she is too far away from the real path and it's maybe hard for her to go back to the right track. And yes, today in her message, she also mentioned about that again. Feel like she really out from the track and not sure how to go back to the track again...

Well, as I said to her before, there's always chance for her to go back and walk in that track again as long she ready to go through and find the way. I believe everyone deserve a second chance. It must be a hard journey, well to go and try to find the right path but finally you take the wrong path...But for sure, we learn something from it :) We have to make a mistake just to learn the right way. So friend, I hope we can hangout at that track as we did before and yes, we are always waiting for you to come back and having a great times together. It's not how you try to correct your life or live in the right way but it's how you look and make your life meaningful than before, it's how you spend the next moments of your life.

Gifts from heaven...

Every times I see rainbow, it always make me smiles. I don't have a great camera, but yes lucky me cause I still can snapped all of these amazing pics. What I called as "Gifts from Heaven"

Sunday, July 4, 2010


The family. We were a strange little band of characters trudging through life sharing diseases and toothpaste, coveting one another's desserts, hiding shampoo, borrowing money, locking each other out of our rooms, inflicting pain and kissing to heal it in the same instant, loving, laughing, defending, and trying to figure out the common thread that bound us all together. ~Erma Bombeck

Friday, July 2, 2010

After 4 years...

Setelah 4 tahun menghabiskan masa di PP, akhirnya saya kini mampu tersenyum apabila menyemak acc@healthycampus. Status saya sekarang BERIJAZAH dan taraf akademik pula Ijazah Kepujian. Thanks God. Sesungguhnya Tuhan begitu baik sekali kerana membuka jalan bagi saya sehingga saya mampu berada pada tahap ini. Satu yang sangat menggembirakan apabila melihat pointer dan gred yang saya perolehi pada sem ini. PNG saya 4, yeah syukur kerana paper saya untuk sem ini, saya mendapat GRED A. Melihat semula tarikh konvo, rasanya macam tidak percaya pula apabila tarikh konvo tu tinggal 1 bulan lagi. Apa yang saya rasa sungguh sukar untuk saya luahkan dengan kata2. Cukuplah dengan semua kejayaan saya, saya hadiahkan semua ini kepada orang tua saya yang begitu banyak memberi perangsang kepada saya. That is my present for my parents. Selama 4 tahun belajar, saya menjadi seorang individu yang semakin matang dan menghargai setiap detik yang ada dalam hidup saya. Puji Tuhan kerana memberikan saya kekuatan selama saya berada di tempat orang... I'm glad that God always with me. :)

Thursday, June 24, 2010


Kuasa Tuhan melebihi segalanya. Sering kali kita tidak ambil peduli tentang ciptaan Tuhan yang berada di sekeliling kita. Sama ada kita sedar atau tidak, sekecil mana pun ciptaan Tuhan, semuanya Dia ciptakan dengan nilai yang tersendiri. Mungkin kita terlalu sibuk mengejar ciptaan manusia yang begitu besar kelihatannya di mata kita, namun sebenarnya ciptaan itu membuatkan kita lupa diri sehingga kita tidak bisa menghayati keindahan yang sememangnya sudah lama Tuhan ciptakan untuk diri kita. Adakalanya kita sendiri yang mencipta keinginan yang begitu tinggi untuk mencapai sesuatu yang tidak mungkin kekal atau tidak mungkin menjadi milik kita. Jangan biarkan pemandangan yang manusia ciptakan itu mengaburi mata kita. Kadang2 kita melihat orang lain senang, kita juga ingin menjadi seperti mereka tanpa kita sedari bahawa mereka juga bayar harga untuk sampai pada tahap itu. Sedarilah bahawa Tuhan itu adil dan punya rencana tersendiri bagi diri kita. Tuhan sentiasa tahu keperluan kita dan dia sentiasa punya cara tersendiri untuk memenuhi segala keperluan kita. Jadi, jangan terlalu gelojoh sehingga tidak punyai waktu untuk diri anda berehat dan menghayati keindahan yang ada di sekeliling anda. Biar pun hanya seekor rama2 yang terbang di sekeliling anda atau sekuntum bunga liar yang anda temui di halaman rumah anda...Ingat, walaupun itu kelihatan kecil, namun semua itu punyai nilai tersendiri :) Begitu juga dengan diri anda. Harga diri kita bukan datang daripada pandangan orang lain tapi harga diri kita datangnya dari diri kita dan yang paling utama datangnya dari Tuhan...

Monday, June 21, 2010

The Greates Gift came from God...

The greatest gift came from God, and I call him Dad. I'm 23 years now and yes, honestly I admit that I am daddy's little girl. Being his daughter is the greatest gift from God that I have in my life. I just can't imagine my life without my father. Unfortunately too many people today have not had the positive influence and experience of having their fathers in their lives. Fathers are an absolute asset to everyone’s lives as Sigmund Freud is quoted, “I cannot think of any need in childhood as strong as the need for a father’s protection.” Fathers many times hold the bulk of the family’s responsibilities in keeping the family unit in tact and need the encouragement of their children to express their appreciation of their fathers being in their lives as Lydia M. Child said, “Blessed indeed is the man who hears many gentle voices call him father!”

Most any man can father their child, but to be a good Dad, there's a lot of these man have to do. I can see how my dad struggle just to make sure his family can live happily. It doesn't care if he hurt himself as long he can see his children happy. Even though his body tired, but his Love...I can't describe it. Every time I see his face, it's remind me how far his journey to become the greatest dad that I can see right now. Thanks God because he still here, with me. Being my best friend, being my teacher. He always listen and always know what I feel. I'd only known him since I arrived in this world. He was there and loving me from the day of my birth..Thanks for being a great Dad to me and my siblings dad. You're my hero :) You are the greatest gift that came from God in my life...

P/s: Happy father's day to all dad around the world. God bless all of you.

Tuesday, June 8, 2010


Sering kali kita bermain dengan perkataan “KASIH”. Disedari atau tidak banyak di antara kita yang menggunakan perkataan itu untuk menyembunyikan kebenaran. Kerana KASIH kita melukakan yang lain, kerana KASIH kita sanggup mengenepikan perasaan orang tua dan sering kali kerana kasih kita melukakan diri kita sendiri. Sejauh mana kita memahami apa yang dikatakan KASIH ? Anda atau saya… adakah kita benar2 memahami apa yang dikatakan KASIH. Apa yang membuatkan saya tergerak untuk berbincang mengenai KASIH pada saat ini? Sering kali saya melihat sesetengah orang mengepos status yang berkenaan dengan kASIH di Facebook. Adakalanya sungguh menarik dan membuatkan hati terpesona dengan status tersebut. Sehinggakan kelihatan bagai baru bercinta dan cinta tersebut kelihatannya sentiasa mekar setiap hari. Dan kemudiannya orang yang sama juga mengeluarkan status berkenan dengan kasih tapi pada kali ini berbeza pula sehingga menyumpah2 mati orang yang dia baru sebentar tadi dia katakan dia cinta dan kasihi. Bukan sekali dua saja saya melihat status dan perkara ini terjadi, boleh katakan hampir setiap hari. Kadang2 saya bertanya pada diri sendiri adakah orang seperti ini betul2 memahami erti kasih dan cinta seperti mana statusnya yang berbunga2 bak musim bunga yang mengeluarkan bunga2 cantik dan berwarna warni itu? Kalau sekejap kata kasih kemudian tak sampai lima minit menyumpah2 mati… saya tidak pasti kalau itu yang dikatakan KASIH. Mungkin pada pandangan individu tersebut, itu yang dinamakan kasih @ Cinta, tapi pada pandangan saya individu ini langsung tidak matang malah jauh sekali untuk memahami apa yang dikatakan KASIH. KASIH tidak kira untuk keluarga, untuk pasangan atau sahabat kita bahkan orang lain yang kita kenal tidak memerlukan kita mengeluarkan kata2 yang “berbunga2” untuk kita eksperesikan pada orang tersebut. Apa yang penting ialah bagaimana kita menunjukkan perasaan tersebut. Dan jika benar2 kita menyayangi @ mengasihi orang lain kita tidak akan sanggup menyumpah2 orang tersebut hingga mati. Lol** anda sanggup ke nak menyumpah pasangan anda mati @ sahabat, keluarga @kenalan anda mati. No, don’t do it! Anda tahu kadang2 walaupun apa yang kita katakan itu kelihatan remeh, Tuhan boleh menunaikannya pada bila2 masa. Jangan sampai Tuhan menunaikan PERMINTAAN tidak bernas anda tersebut gara2 tidak berfikir@ terburu2! Kasih itu sabar; kasih itu murah hati; ia tidak cemburu. Ia tidak memegahkan diri dan tidak sombong. Ia tidak melakukan yang tidak sopan dan tidak mencari keuntungan diri sendiri. Ia tidak pemarah dan tidak menyimpan kesalahan orang lain. tidak bersukacita karena ketidakadilan, tetapi karena kebenaran. Ia menutupi segala sesuatu, percaya segala sesuatu, mengharapkan segala sesuatu, sabar menanggung segala sesuatu.”

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Selamat Hari Gawai

I think it is not too late to say "Happy Gawai" and "Happy Keaamatan" to all Sarawakian and Sabahan. Anyway, do enjoy your holidays :)

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Yes, It's just not easy.

I just realized that majority of readers that stopped and visited my blog because they interested with a post that titled "Life is complicated". I don''t know why, but I'm sure most of them maybe tried to find the answer for that question. Life is complicated, isn't it. But I'm sure, all the complicated things that happen in our life make we learn more about this life. I mean, this is reality, you can't just pretend that your life always good and happy just like there are no problem in your life. Just face it! Don't keep asking why is life so complicated. You know what I mean, If you keep asking and never try to face it, you will never know what is life. Don't complain that your life is complicated when you never try to learn something from it. Be thankful because you still can sit and have a cup of coffee or you still can see the sun rise every morning. Take a few minutes to talk to God. And give yourself time to enjoy this world. Sometimes, keep complaining will make you forget how precious your life are because your are too busy to think about your problem until you forget there are many things outside there precious and wonderful...

Saturday, May 22, 2010


Untuk 2 minggu ini, saya dan team saya bekerja kuat untuk beberapa aktiviti gereja. Dan semestinya kemuncak kepada aktiviti kami ialah Pentas Pujian dan Penyembahan yang akan diadakan esok. Mungkin ada kalanya semua berasa sungguh letih dan tertekan, tetapi saya kagum sekali dengan semangat yang ditunjukkan oleh setiap muda mudi yang ada dalam kumpulan saya. Walaupun bilangan kami hanya sedikit namun semangat yang ditunjukkan itu sudah cukup untuk menunjukkan kesungguhan setiap ahli yang terlibat dengan kegiatan yang kami lakukan. Dan saya bersyukur kepada Tuhan kerana menjadikan mereka sebagai perintis bagi muda mudi di sidang kami untuk bangkit dan terus maju melayani Tuhan. Walaupun pada pandangan fizikal, kami sememangnya banyak sekali kekurangan apatah lagi dengan keadaan kemudahan di gereja yang sememangnya banyak ketinggalan jika dibandingkan dengan sidang lain. Tapi jauh sekali di sudut hati saya, saya percaya bahawa semangat dan kerendahan hati yang ditunjukkan mereka dalam melayani Tuhan itu membuatkan segalanya cukup sempurna walaupun dalam kekurangan. Kekurangan itulah yang membuatkan setiap kami mempunyai satu azam untuk terus percaya dan bersungguh-sungguh dalam melayani Tuhan. Terima kasi Bapa, kerana mengajar kami untuk sentiasa bersyukur dan merendahkan diri di hadapan Mu. Sesungguh tanpa bimbingan dan pimpinan Tuhan mungkin kami tidak akan berdiri sejauh ini pada masa ini. Thanks Lord!
P/s: Sorry lama sudah tidak update blog :) promise I'll update my blog.

Monday, May 3, 2010

I'm home

Finally, here I am :) I'm home...thanks God I can reached home safely~

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Ready to go~~~

Baru ja siap packing barang2 untuk dipos. Sudah 3 kotak barang saya kemas. Cuma tinggal mau kemas pakaian ja lagi.Tinggal 2 hari saja lagi saya akan balik ke Sarawak. Wew, semasa packing barang tadi, baru saya sedar selama ni banyak betul hadiah yang sudah saya terima. Lama juga saya belek2 semua hadiah yang ada. Masing2 punya nilai tersendiri, dan yang saya terima baru2 ni hadiah dari students saya. Sayang mau pos takut pecah n rosak semua barang, tapi apakan daya takda cara lain nak bawa balik tu barang, kalau nak bawa gn flight pun tak mampu tu. -.-" jadi nak tak nak terpaksa juga saya poskan...Anyway, tinggal beberapa hari lagi untuk dihabiskan di penang. :) beberapa hari ni saya sibuk sekali dengan temujanji ma kawan2. Thanks to everybody yang sudi meluangkan masa bersama saya n yang telah belanja makan. Really had a great time with you guys, hopefully we can go out again! And to all my Indonesian friends, gonna miss all of you guys, I know it's hard for us to meet again after this time! but, just pray so I can visit all of you in Indonesia after this =) gonna miss all the moments that I had with all of you during our ministry, thanks for treating me like your own family. I will miss every single moment that I spend HERE :) Thank you~

Saturday, April 24, 2010

It is not goodbye

"They may forget what you said but they will never forget how you made them feel."
*Today was my last day of practical. It was very sad when I have to leave my students and it was hurt to see they cry. I did not expect that I will see they cry, but yes that was happened.I was very shocked when they suddenly hug me. And for sure, I will miss my girls. I admit that they're naughty but they still respect me as a teacher. And I am very appreciate all the letters and presents that they gave to me. Didn't expect they will give all of this things to me but really love it. The most important is they are my 1st students and they taught me a lot of things to be a good teacher. Without these girls I can't call my self a teacher. It was because of them, I learned something about teaching...Some of them keep sending me SMS after school and keep asking me if I already arrive at sarawak. Lol, they thought I'm going to Sarawak today. I'm glad to know that they love me:p and yeah, thanks girl for everything, teacher will miss all of you...(Don't ask me if I cry or not -.-")

Monday, April 19, 2010

Yippie =.=" Tired and exhausted...I wish I can have 48 hours for 1 day...Oh my, Good night all~

Enggan Melepaskan

Suatu hari, seorang anak balita sedang asyik bermain pasir di pantai ditemani ayahnya. Lalu, datanglah penjaja es krim. Sang ayah segera membeli sebuah untuk anaknya. Namun, ketika melihat mulut anaknya penuh pasir, ia pun urung memberikan es krim itu. "Ayo, Sayang, buang dulu kotoran itu dari mulutmu. Ayah punya sesuatu yang lebih baik untukmu!" Kisah ini ditulis oleh Max Lucado, ayah dari anak itu, dalam bukunya Just Like Jesus (Gloria Graffa). Ia berkata, "Saya tak akan memberinya es krim sebelum ia membersihkan mulutnya, sebab saya mengasihinya. Saya tidak ingin ia makan es krim bercampur pasir!"

Tuhan menawarkan kepada kita sesuatu yang lebih baik. Hidup baru yang dipenuhi kasih, damai, dan berkat. Namun, sebelum bisa menerimanya, kita perlu membersihkan diri lebih dulu dari "pasir" dosa. Tindak asusila, hawa nafsu, fitnah, dan perkataan kotor, bagaikan pasir yang memenuhi mulut. Rasul Paulus menyebutnya sebagai kelakuan manusia lama yang harus ditanggalkan. Setelah itu baru kita dapat mencicipi indahnya hidup dengan kelakuan manusia baru (ayat 12). Sama seperti es krim tidak enak dimakan bersama pasir, gaya hidup lama juga tidak bisa kita campur dengan gaya hidup manusia baru. Yang lama harus ditanggalkan, supaya yang baru bisa kita kenakan.

Lihatlah kembali buah rohani orang-orang pilihan Allah yang ditulis Paulus di ayat 12-15. Apakah ada di antaranya yang belum mewujud dalam diri Anda? Apa penyebabnya? Apakah karena masih ada sisa-sisa kelakuan manusia lama yang enggan Anda lepaskan? --JTI

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Sunday, April 18, 2010

Loving my life

So, here I am sitting here in front of my laptop and thinking what should I write for the next post. Wow, it is a very silence Sunday for me here today. Honestly, this few days I can not explain what happen to me. Too busy with everything and yes, 5 more days left and then I'll finish my practical. After almost 3 weeks, finally I can chat with my brother. Glad to know that he is ok, there was something wrong with the internet connection at his place and this problem continuously for almost 3 weeks he said. Luckily now, the line is ok. Thanks God!

So, apa lagi yang mau saya ceritakan di sini. Terlampau banyak cerita sampai saya sendiri tidak tau mana satu yang harus saya ceritakan dahulu. Ya, cakap pasal practical, last week on Friday saya menerima sekeping "Good Bye" card daripada student saya. Very funny when they thought that I'll leave that day. Anyway, thanks to my students yang sudah bersusah payah siapkan kad tu untuk saya. Really appreciate it guys. And thanks to Corina yang always cari saya di bilik guru dan dok sengih2 setiap kali lalu depan saya. =.="

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Here I am...

After a long time, I have my strength to post and speak here again. What happened to me this lately! Am too busy and tired with my routine. Well, few more days and I'll free from this practical. LoL... Actually I'm sad to leave all of my students but at the same time, I'm happy cause I don't have to prepare a lesson plan anymore. Part of me is happy and part of me feels so bad bout this.

Well, there's a lot of things happened. Anyway, I will try my best to recall again back of memories and what happened in my daily life this lately. We don't know what will happen tomorrow but I'm sure as long we keep believing in Him, yeah our source of faith and strength, we can survive! Remember that "We live by faith not by sight".

All I know right now, I don't want to think back about the past and now I'm preparing my self to face the future. I admit that, so many things "pop up" in my mind but I try my best not to think bout it. What I mean is I won't let all of this thing haunt me :b

The past is a good place to visit, but I wouldn't want to live there!!!

Saturday, April 3, 2010

Cherokee Legend

Do you know the legend of the Cherokee Indian youth's rite of Passage? His father takes him into the forest, blindfolds him an leaves him alone. He is required to sit on a stump the whole night and not remove the blindfold until the rays of the morning sun shine through it. He cannot cry out for help to anyone.Once he survives the night, he is a MAN. He cannot tell the other boys of this experience, because each lad must come into manhood on his own. The boy is naturally terrified. He can hear all kinds of noises. Wild beasts must surely be all around him .. Maybe even some human might do him harm. The wind blew the grass and earth, and shook his stump, but he sat stoically, never removing the blindfold. It would be the only way he could become a man! Finally, after a horrific night the sun appeared and he removed his blindfold. It was then that he discovered his father sitting on the stump next to him. He had been at watch the entire night, protecting his son from harm.We, too, are never alone. Even when we don't know it, God is watching over us, Sitting on the stump beside us. When trouble comes, all we have to do is reach out to Him.
Just because you can't see God,
Doesn't mean He is not there.
"For we walk by faith, not by sight."

Saturday, March 27, 2010

Be thankful

Be thankful that you don’t already have everything you desire,
If you did, what would there be to look forward to?

Be thankful when you don’t know something
For it gives you the opportunity to learn.

Be thankful for the difficult times.
During those times you grow.

Be thankful for your limitations
Because they give you opportunities for improvement.

Be thankful for each new challenge
Because it will build your strength and character.

Be thankful for your mistakes
They will teach you valuable lessons.

Be thankful when you’re tired and weary
Because it means you’ve made a difference.

It is easy to be thankful for the good things.
A life of rich fulfillment comes to those who are
also thankful for the setbacks.

GRATITUDE can turn a negative into a positive.
Find a way to be thankful for your troubles
and they can become your blessings.
~ Author Unknown ~

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Selama kuhidup...

"Tak terbatas kuasaMu Tuhan...Semua dapat Kau lakukan...Apa yang kelihatan mustahil bagiku, itu sangat mungkin bagiMu..." Mungkin ramai yang pernah mendengar lagu tersebut. Saya percaya, ramai di antara kita mengalami pergumulan, permasalahan peribadi. Sering kali kita mengandarkan kekuatan diri kita untuk meneruskan kehidupan kita sehingga ada kalanya apabila kita mengalami suatu permasalahan dan pergumulan yang besar kita akan merasa sangat kecewa kerana kita berasa diri kita sungguh lemah dan tidak berdaya.

Seringkali juga kita menyatakan bahawa diri kita percaya kepada Tuhan, namun apabila mengalami sedikit ujian, dengan mudahnya kita akan mempersoalkan di mana Dia dan mengapa Dia tidak membantu kita. Tetapi adakah kita sedar bahawa kita terlalu ego dan terlalu mengandarkan kekuatan diri kita sendiri sehingga kita lupa bahawa kuasa Bapa melebihi segalanya. Mungkin sudah tiba masanya untuk kita belajar merendah diri...Belajar untuk mengandarkan Tuhan. Kerana saya percaya bahawa Tuhan itu sentiasa tahu apa yang terbaik untuk kita.

Bagi yang rapat dengan saya, mungkin ramai yang sering bertanya kenapa saya selalu tenang walaupun saya ada banyak masalah. Mungkin ramai yang mengatakan bahawa saya tidak punya perasaan. Siapa ya di dunia ni yang tidak punya perasaan. Untuk pengetahuan kalian, saya juga manusia biasa yang punya perasaan. Cuma di saat saya berhadapan dengan segala permasalahan mahupun pergumulan dalam hidup saya, saya punya satu pegangan. Pegangan yang sentiasa saya sematkan dalam hati dan fikiran saya :) bahawa Tuhan itu sentiasa campur tangan dalam kehidupan saya dan dia tahu apa yang terbaik untuk diri saya. Sebab itu saya tidak pernah berasa risau kerana saya tahu Tuhan sentiasa menyertai saya. Yang pasti saya percayakan campurtangan Tuhan dalam hidup saya. Ya saudara, Kuasa Tuhan itu melebihi segalanya, jadi apa yang perlu kita risaukan selagi kita mempercayaiNya.

Ternyata di saat kita menyerahkan diri, merendahkan diri dan belajar untuk mengandarkan Tuhan, kita akan dapat merasakan betapa besarnya kasih Tuhan itu. Apa yang mustahil bagi kita semuanya mungkin bagi Tuhan. Tiada satupun yang mustahil bagi Tuhan. Percayalah dan belajarlah untuk merendahkan diri dan bersandar pada Tuhan kerana jika kita bersandar pada diri kita sendiri terlalu mudah untuk kita jatuh... Selama kita percaya dan beriman kepada Tuhan, tidak mudah untuk kita jatuh kerana Tuhan yang sentiasa memegang tangan kita, Amen!

Dan, sesungguhnya seperti hari2 sebelum ini, :) saya katakan Tuhan itu sentiasa campur tangan dalam hidup saya, dan hari ini Tuhan dengan kasihNya tetap setia bersama2 dengan saya. Terima kasih Bapaku, Engkau yang sentiasa tahu akan keperluan anakMu. Syukur dan Puji Tuhan!

Mat 11:28- "28Marilah kepada-Ku, semua yang letih lesu dan berbeban berat, Aku akan memberi kelegaan kepadamu."

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Do we have to destroy our friendship...

I am totally speechless... I just don't know what else to say... Why do we have to be like this? I really like you. I do. You're so nice, and sweet, and you listen to all my problems and respond with the appropriate compliments. But, well, I don't really see a relationship in our future...I guess you understand what I mean. We talked about it before, a short conversation but I know both of us understand that. I knew you always understand, you always do. :)

We're so perfect as friends, you know? I can tell you anything, and you know you can always come to me anytime you need to hear me bitch about work or how ugly I feel. You wouldn't want to ruin a friendship like that just so you could be my boyfriend, and have me look at you with desire and longing in my eyes, if only once—would you? Of course not. Well, if we started dating, it would only complicate this wonderful setup I've got going here.

You are my best friend. And we both know that... We can't be more than that. It's hurt. But, It's just…you're like my best friend, and I would hate for something you desperately want to change that. You said I will not understand...No. We maybe not destine to be lover. We are just destined to be a good friend. Best friend...Who always there for each others, or hang out when both of us need someone to talk to. That's all.

:) ok enough. Don't worry and really sorry for everything I said just now. You are nice, funny and amazing. I'm sure there must be some one out there for you. Some one that really match for you. You will find someone, and I know it. And when you do, I'll be right by your side to suddenly become all flirty and affectionate with you in front of her, until she grows jealous and won't believe it when you say we're just friends. But when she dumps you, that's just what we'll be... I always love you like I did before :) so don't worry coz you're always my best and special friend. Remember that...


Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Why is life so complicated...

Have you ever think "Why is life so complicated?" Some one asked me this question before. And honestly that time I don't have an answer for that question. After a while, I let my self think about this question. Keep myself thinking, what is the best answer for the question. Well, I guess different people will give different answer.

While I'm surfing just now, I found this question posted by someone I don't know. It's related to some questions that most people keep asking to them self I guess. Maybe you also ever think about this question.

"Why is life so complicated, Why does everything need to be so messy like why cant life be simple, Why do people need to like do what they want even if it would hurt someone, Why do people say things they don't really mean but still say them or if they do mean them, Why do they need to say it. Is life only about money and sex. Why do people need to change all the time and what if someone liked someone better the way they were before and they changed completely but change in a bad way what do you do. If you know someone is getting away from you and your loosing contact with that person then what. What if someone you like does not notice you. what you do if when you look back you don't know where your at no more. You don't know the last time you had a good time with your family and friends with no fights."

I know most of us hope that our life can be more simple and easier than what we face right now. For me it's all about yourself. Life is complicated, that's we call it LIFE. If life always easy and simple, what do you expect you can learn from this life? My little sis also asked me this question long time ago. She asked me why we have to be struggle to get what we want? Why life keep complicated as we grow up? Why we have to think about so many things?

Well babe... Actually, I just can give you my simple opinion. For me, if life were simple, there is nothing we can learn and we can't improve our self to be a better person. Do you think you can learn something if you never get through the real life? As we have to face the hardest way, we maybe did not realize that we learn a lot of things from that. It's hurt but believe me, this pain is one of powerful lesson that teach you to be more strong. So, why are we so scared when life is getting complicated? Believe me, if life is simple there's no fun. ^.^v

Forget bout the person that you like but never notice you. Forget about your tears, forget about people who keep thinking that you never exist or whatever that bother you. All you have to do now is learn...Learn from this complicated situation because you will find a happiness if you can get through all of this. Remember, if life is simple, there's no fun and I bet you, your life is useless if you didn't learn something from your life. :D~ So, stop complaining and stop asking "Why is life so complicated"!!!

Deeper Conversation

Is your favourite colour blue?
Do you always tell the truth?
Do you believe in outerspace?
Now I'm learning you

Is your skin as tanned as mine?
Does your hair flow sideways?
Did someone took a portion of your heart?
Now I'm learning you

And if you don't mind
Can you tell me
All your hopes and fears
And Everything that you believe in
Would you make a difference in the world
I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation
Only you can make me

I let my guard down for you
And in time you will too

If you don't mind
Can you tell me
All your hopes and fears
And Everything that you believe in
Would you make a difference in the world
I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation
Only you can make me

If you don't mind
Can you tell me
All your hopes and fears
And Everything that you believe in
Would you make a difference in the world
I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation
Only you can make me

Deeper Conversation
Does ur name rhyme with mine...

Monday, March 15, 2010

Maybe all you need is love and a lil bit of patience...

There is something special about this video. Not even dog I guess, we our self as a person need love and a little patience to make our self feel save. Lets learn from this situation. Sometimes we maybe don't understand why certain people act just like they don't have any feelings and ignore others people out there. But exactly, it's all about trust, a little faith and love and perhaps a little bit of patience to make them realize that there are others person who really care of them!!!

Friday, March 12, 2010

Place where I belong

My sister sms me and said they go back to dad's village. I think almost 3 years I didn't go back there. It's been a long time and yes I admit that I really miss that place and of course all my relatives there. My grandpa Joe...Grandpa cousins... And am sure they will ask about me every time my parents go back there. Hopefully this year I can go back to Sg Asap :P (Quite jealous of my bro n sis coz they can go back) And yes, this video was taken during our Hari Keluarga 2008. So, let me share pictures of my village here :P

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Satu Hal Yang Ku Rindu

Hampir 4 bulan sudah saya di sini. Rindu sangat mau balik hometown dan melayani. I mean, memang saya melayani di sini tapi pelayanan saya di sini tidak tetap sebab saya sibuk praktikal yang kadang2 terpaksa membuatkan saya sukar terlibat dengan aktiviti yang dijalankan. Tapi syukur, Puji Tuhan sebab saya masih juga boleh melayani di tempat ini. Cuma rasanya untuk semester ini, saya agak kurang terlibat dengan pelayanan, rasanya sem ini saya cuma aktif melayani untuk bulan Januari sahaja. Untuk bulan Februari, pelayanan saya makin kurang sebab jadual yang sibuk. Tapi syukur, sebab Koko Andrew n Melda faham. Sorry guys :) kadang2 nda dapat juga tolong kamu. Kalau balik bercuti, dapat juga saya melayani full time di hometown...(Saya rindu sangat masa2 melayani bersama2 rakan2 saya di hometown) Anyway, thanks God sebab saya masih dapat melayani sehingga ke hari ini ^.^v

Monday, March 8, 2010

Bad Day?

Is there a bad day? That one day when everything always looks messy. Everything feels out of control, all seemed strange, everything was not friendly. If you have ever experienced a day like that, you often think of it as a bad day, right?

The Psalmist was clearly mentioned that he has a bad day: "They confronted me in the day of my calamity Is the psalmist believe this kind of day? Maybe. In the cultural-religious thought in the era of the psalmist, there seems to be fateful day. However, if any such assumption, which is more important is the faith of the psalmist who said that God is more powerful than the calculation of the days of such fateful: "But God be back to me" (verse 19). So, he did not want to get caught and imprisoned in the prediction of the fateful day, bad day. God is the God who rules over every day and in every day. That is the faith of the psalmist.Faith does not stop on the fear cast by the calculation of the days. Faith is in God that transcends all day.

Today is the day that God made for you. Throw away the suggestion horoscopes, get rid of your fears immediately. Enter today with faith that God is the God of today, the ruling on this day.

Psalm 18:17-20 17 [He rescued me from my strong enemy and from those who hated me, for they were too mighty for me.They confronted me in the day of my calamity, but the Lord was my support. He brought me out into a broad place; he rescued me, because he delighted in me. The Lord dealt with me according to my righteousness; according to the cleanness of my hands he rewarded me.]

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Draw me close to You

There come times when I have nothing more to tell God. If I were to continue to pray in words, I would have to repeat what I have already said. At such times it is wonderful to say to God, "May I be in Thy presence, Lord? I have nothing more to say to Thee, but I do love to be in Thy presence." ~O. Hallesby

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Shine like stars

New version of Shine Like Stars by TW :)Geezzz...I really love this new version...But I still love the old one :)

Monday, February 22, 2010

Can You Feel His Presence?

Some people think that prayer just means asking for things, and if they fail to receive exactly what they asked for, they think the whole thing is a fraud.

Rasanya begitu lama saya sudah tak sharing di blog saya sini. Saya masih ingat untuk post yang lepas, saya dah berjanji nak share sedikit experience saya semasa Kebaktian lepas. Actually, saya sudah lupa tentang apa yang saya nak post sehingga malam tadi saya merasakan sesuatu yang sangat luar biasa sekali, mengingatkan saya tentang sesuatu yang saya ingin kongsikan selama ini tetapi saya tangguhkan. Dan akhirnya, hari ni saya putuskan untuk share semua di sini.

1 minggu bercuti, hampir setiap malam juga saya tidur lewat (di samping membuat kerja, perkara utama yang dilakukan ialah main game~ LoL). Seperti biasa kalau hari Sabtu, saya memang akan cuba untuk tidur awal kerana hari Ahad saya akan bangun awal. Tetapi semalam, entah kenapa saya tidur lewat. Roomate saya yang biasa nya tidur lambat pula yang awal tidur malam tu. Pada masa yang sama saya mencari lagu di youtube. Dan tiba2 entah kenapa terlintas di fikiran saya untuk mencari lagu True Worshippers-Hosanna(Be lifted high)...Walaupun suda ada MP3 ntah kenapa gatal juga saya mau cari lagu ni smlm.

Semasa saya mendengar lagu tu, entah kenapa tiba2 saya terasa semuanya di luar kawalan. Tiba2 juga saya berasa sungguh pilu dan entah kenapa saya menangis seperti seorang budak2 yang menangis. Ada satu kerinduan dalam hati saya. Kerinduan untuk berbicara dengan Tuhan lebih dari sebelumnya. My hands shake and I just don't know what words came out from my mouth. Seolah2 saya tidak dapat bersuara tapi saya hati saya terus berkata2 Hosanna, Hosanna gitu. Believe it or not, I cried for almost half an hour. Say I am kidding, no am not. Pada saat saya berhenti mendengar lagu itu, saya masih menangis dan saya dapat rasakan getaran dalam diri saya. Saya pasti tangan saya masih bergetar dan lemah sekali. Dan dalam hati saya, saya berkata "Bapa, adakah itu kamu? Tunjukkan Bapa jika benar Engkau ada di sini" dan anda percaya kalau sememangnya Tuhan sentiasa punya cara untuk berbicara dengan kita? Ya, keadaan sangat berbeza pada waktu itu berbanding beberapa minit sebelumnya. Tuhan menyatakan bahawa dia hadir bersama saya dengan memberikan kedamaian dan ketenangan yang luar biasa sekali.

Saya dapat katakan bahawa saya terasa begitu damai sekali dalam diri saya. Walaupun air mata saya tidak berhenti tetapi ada sesuatu yang membuatkan hati saya berasa begitu damai pada malam semalam. Hati saya penuh dengan sukacita kerana berasa satu kedamaian dan ketenangan yang luar biasa! Tuhan memang hadir dan tidak pernah jauh daripada diriku.

Percaya atau tidak, ini bukan kali pertama. Sebelum ini juga pernah beberapa kali saya mengalami perkara yang sama semasa saat teduh atau doa saya tetapi bagi saya semalam merupakan sesuatu yang melebihi daripada semua yang pernah terjadi.

Perkara yang sama pernah saya alami semasa P&W. Entah kenapa pada saat masuk penyembahan, saya merasakan seluruh badan saya sepertinya bergetar dan air mata saya mula mengalir tanpa henti. Pada masa yang sama, saya dalam fikiran saya terlintas semua kebaikan Tuhan dalam hidup saya dan pada masa tersebut mulut saya hanya mampu mengungkapkan perkataan Haleluya tanpa henti. Pada saat itu juga, saya mengangkat tangan dan ya, saya dapat merasakan tangan saya bergetar. Sehingga dalam fikiran saya, saya hanya ingin terus mengucapkan syukur, syukur bagiMu Bapa. Sehingga seolah2 saya bukan lagi bersama dengan jemaat lain pada masa itu. Seolah2 saya berseorang duduk memuji dan menyembah Tuhan. Sehingga akhirnya, baru saya sedar dan tenang sehingga tamat masa P&W dan jemaat diminta duduk tangan saya masih lagi bergetar dan lutut saya terasa lemah.

Apa yang menggembirakan saya, setiap kali kerinduan yang dalam untuk berbicara dengan Bapa timbul dalam hati saya, setiap kali itulah Bapa akan menyatakan kehadiranNya dihadapan saya. Ini membuatkan setiap doa saya sangat berharga. Segala pujian dan syukur yang dinaikkan untuk Tuhan sememangnya layak untuk Dia sahaja. Ternyata, jika kita punya keinginan yang bersungguh2 untuk mencarikan dan merasakan kehadiran Tuhan, dia akan punya cara tersendiri menyatakan kehadiranNya. Mungkin anda juga pernah mengalami kehadiran Tuhan dalam kehidupan anda. Yang pasti, pada saat kita berdoa, semua doa kita sentiasa didengar dan kesungguhan dan kejujuran dari hati itu adalah perlu. Saya masih ingat kata2 Kak Miska "Penantian dalam doa merupakan satu pelayanan yang terbesar dalam kita menunggu setiap doa kita dijawap oleh Tuhan"

Percayalah, Tuhan itu sentiasa ingin berbicara dengan kita. Jika pada hari ini anda merasakan hati anda disentuh, anda merasakan yang anda ingin berbicara dengan Tuhan, ya ga apa2.. Ambil masa anda, jangan keraskan hati :) You will know and feel His presence.

Monday, February 15, 2010

Valentine's Day

From every human being there rises a light that reaches straight to heaven. And when two souls that are destined to be together find each other, their streams of light flow together, and a single brighter light goes forth from their united being.
Happy Valentine's Day :)

Real Love?

Happy Valentine's day guys! February? LoL! Yesterday was Valentine's day and everybody seems so busy with their loved one. So how was your Valentine? And guys, what exactly do you know about this valentine's day. Love? What is a real love for you?

In the beginning, February 14 is celebrated as a day of commemoration for St. Valentine. Outstanding common legend is that he was executed in Rome around the year 270 as desperate to marry Christian couples, though it was prohibited by Emperor Claudius II. Another legend tells of a letter that read "from your Valentine" which he sent to a girl he was healed from blindness, the night before he was sentenced to death. Perhaps because of the strong messages of love from these legends, these anniversaries are then interpreted to be the day of love - a day when people express love to each other by giving cards, flowers, or gifts to their loved one.

It's a shame if we have to wait for February 14, only to express love. Therefore, we can and should do, whenever someone else needs it. We also can not just loving life as Valentine's Day arrives. Therefore, the call of every believer to live in love and always radiated love. Not only to people we love, but also to all people, including our enemies. Once the importance of this call, so Paul says that even though we have all the wisdom, faith, and grace, but without love, our lives in vain.

However, this Valentine's Day can be a momentum to reflect and improve the quality of love in our lives. Have we live in love and radiate love like that God wants! :)

Friday, February 5, 2010

To teach is to touch a life forever...

She came to me with a sad face. And said "Cikgu, td cikgu tu marah saya lagi". "Then dia suruh saya ketuk ketampi 100 kali, bukan saya ada buat salah cikgu. Cikgu blh tanya 1 kelas, tiba2 ja dia marah kami smua harini." Then I asked her " What happened dear?" " That teacher, I told you before and again today she did it again teacher, no... I don't want to enter her class anymore. I'm not happy and tension teacher. What if this happen every time she come to our class, everybody don't want to study teacher"... I just stared at her and suddenly I said " Never mind dear, maybe there's misunderstood. You can't escape her class, don't worry ok, everything will be fine"...

I don't have any ideas what I said to her. But I know that she did not happy with what happened just now. Hurmm, kesian juga tengok wajah dia tadi. But nothing I can do about it, kecuali mendengar luahan perasaan dia. Geeezzz, teenagers...Unpredictable kan? sepanjang 4 minggu dah practical, banyak perkara yang saya belajar. Bukan senang nak uruskan sekumpulan remaja yang masih belum kenal erti kehidupan. Setiap hari ada saja perkara yang berlaku. Dan tadi, saya masuk kelas dan tegur mereka kerana mereka tidak hantar kerja rumah. Semua mereka diam. Maybe selama beberapa minggu ni, mereka tak pernah lihat saya bersikap macam tu. Tiba2 this girl bersuara "Cikgu...kenapa cikgu tiba2 garang harini?" Saya yang mendengar soalan tu pun hampir tergelak dan menjawab " You have to ask yourself...Kenapa cikgu tiba2 marah kamu hari ni. Cikgu marah sebab kamu semua tidak mendengar arahan yang cikgu suruh, bila cikgu suruh hantar kerja rumah, kamu semua tidak hantar, so next class kamu faham sendiri apa berlaku kalau kamu tak buat apa yg cikgu minta" Then semua mereka diam...I know they're not happy, but saya terpaksa juga scolded mereka sebagai pengajaran kepada mereka.

Makin lama saya mendalami bidang ni, makin banyak perkara menarik yang saya pelajari..It's not bout ur salary, your holidays or what benefits you can get. It's all bout what you can give to them, and what you can teach them to make sure that one day they can survive when they go out and find the real meaning of life. Sekarang baru saya faham, ianya bukan mengenai diri saya sendiri. Mungkin ramai yang memilih bidang ni kerana terpaksa atau kerana berfikir bahawa gaji or cuti seorang guru lebih baik berbanding dengan pekerjaan lain. Tapi yang pasti, bila anda sudah menjadi seorang guru, pastikan jiwa anda adalah jiwa pendidik. Kerana yang pasti anda berhadapan dengan seorang individu, manusia dan andalah yang akan memberi satu impak dalam kehidupan individu ini.

As for me, I don't care if my students forget what I said, but I want they remember how I make them feel. I really want they feel something special, doesn't care who they are. I just want they to know that there are something in their life that they have to explore and they are special no matter what happen :D~

I am not a teacher but an awakener

Sunday, January 31, 2010

Safe In a Crazy World

I really love this song. Actually I just find out bout this singer. Really love her voice. Angelic voice!!! And I love all of her songs.. OMG :D~

Friday, January 29, 2010

There aren't enough days in the weekend.

Yes, it's FRIDAY... Don't you know this is the day that I've been waiting for this entire week. Hye~ it's weekends guys :) I love weekends but as John Shirley said "Weekends are a bit like rainbows; they look good from a distance but disappear when you get up close to them." Anyway, I hope you'll enjoy yours weekends :)

Life..Life..and LIFE~

Kadang-kala terfikir jugakan, di mana titik noktah bagi kehidupan ni. Sejauh mana saya akan melangkah dalam kehidupan saya. Rasa macam baru bermula saja langkah saya ni. Macam baru semalam saja saya keluar dari kotak dan keluar melihat dunia luar. Segala2nya macam satu yang baru dalam hidup saya. Jujur juga saya katakan ada kalanya saya berasa BOSAN dengan kehidupan saya. Bukannya tidak ada apa yang menarik, cuma kadang kala terlalu fed up dengan persekitaran yang semakin hari semakin menyesakkan nafas rasanya. Bukan disebabkan pencemaran udara! Tetapi disebabkan perilaku manusia yang berada di sekeliling saya. Maksud saya, cubalah lihat sekarang ni terlalu banyak perkara yang berlaku di sekeliling kita. Lumrah kehidupan? Ya, memang tu lumrah kehidupan. Kita manusia lahir dengan pelbagai personaliti, so normallah kalau kita lihat sikap individu yang berbeza. Cuma ada kalanya ada sesetengah orang tu mereka suka bertindak ikut hati dan perasaan mereka. Kalau lah apa yang mereka lakukan tu membawa kebaikan kepada semua orang tak apa la juga, tapi yang peliknya apa yang mereka buat tu selalunya akan menyusahkan orang lain dan akhirnya membawa kepada pertelagahan besar. Last2 tidak mau mengaku salah atas perbuatan sendiri. Nah, bukan kah sikap mereka ni cuma akan membuatkan orang makin fed up dengan mereka.

Kadang-kala mungkin kita tidak perasaan juga apa yang kita sebut mungkin menyakitkan orang lain. Sedar tak sedar kita ungkapkan sesuatu yang melukakan hati orang lain. Satu lagi perkara yang mungkin patut diambil perhatian. Menyuarakan pendapat memang satu perkara yang baik. Tapi semua ni memerlukan masa dan tempat yang sesuai. Jangan main sukahati ja komplen pasal orang lain, sedangkan diri sendiri pun lebih kurang sama juga or maybe lebih teruk lagi daripada orang yang dia sendiri tu komplen.Kalau betul pun hendak memperbaiki atau menegur orang lain, ya silakan. TETAPI biarlah lakukan dengan cara LEMBUT dan MENGHORMATI orang yang anda nak tegur tu. Jangan ikut suka ja nak tegur2 dan marah2 orang bha, walaupun ada kelemahan dan melakukan kesilapan tetapi orang kamu tegur tu MANUSIA juga. MANUSIA yang punya perasaan. Eh? Adakah makhluk yang bernama MANUSIA tidak punya perasaan? Setahu saya, setiap manusia punya perasaan kan, fikir2 la kalau tiba2 orang lain lakukan perkara yang sama pada anda. Apa pula perasaan anda? So, sebelum luahkan sesuatu perkara tu, biar fikir dengan baik2 dulu. Kalau cara yang betul, sudah tentu orang akan terima dengan baik kan.

Yang penting, bagi setiap perkara yang kita lakukan biarlah kita lakukannya tanpa menyakiti orang lain. Mungkin bagi anda pencapaian tu penting berbanding dengan orang lain, tapi perlu anda SEDAR juga kita takkan berjaya tanpa orang lain dalam hidup kita. Setinggi mana pun taraf / kedudukan kita, kita akan tetap memerlukan orang lain untuk membantu / melengkapkan kehidupan kita. Jadi layanlah orang lain seperti mana kita inginkan diri kita dilayan. Orang akan hormat kita jika kita menghormati mereka :D

Wednesday, January 27, 2010


I see the morning glory
It winds upon the tree
It tells the untold story of how things were meant to be
You saw the universe
Caught up in desperate dreams
You came and changed the ending
Changed it to save my fate
You led the revolution
You left your legacy
Embraced the struggle
in the face of mortality
I know I'm not alone in this
Help me believe

I can be free
I can be free from this place
Beautiful healer
Beautiful grace
Help me to see
Everything fall into place
Wake me from dreaming
No more deceiving
Break these chains

It's still the same old story
This great divide
Between the want and waste
And all the hunger inside
I heard the news today
Now I'm trying to find my place
I'm just a single voice
What can I do to erase

All this misunderstanding
All this anarchy
Six degrees of separation
Sometimes it's so hard to see
That we are not alone in this
I need to believe

I can be free
I can be free from this place
Beautiful healer
Beautiful grace
Help me to see
Everything fall into place
Wake me from dreaming
No more deceiving
Break these chains

[Free by Carrine May]

Monday, January 25, 2010

Nothing is worth more than this day

Since I started my practical I didn't write or share anything here. I know some of my readers keep waiting for a new post from me. Sorry for that..what a very lazy Wilder :P~ Actually, I really want to write something but I don't have enough strength...Lol...Actually, didn't take a long time for me to write something but I really feel tired and I cannot think what should I share with you guys. Even though there's so many things in my head but I can't bring it out!!! Sometimes it took me for a few hours to think and think what should I write... Where should I begin, but nothing come across my mind and finally, you know what happen. I just close the browser and there you go :D no idea~

Let me tell you something :) I have many good students. Honestly, first time I enter the class I feel very excited. Everything came across my mind, and before that I keep asking myself "what will happen in the class?", "How do my students accept me?", "Can they understand what I will teach them" and too many questions in my mind. Thanks God, cause I got a very good students. At least I can control them and they respect me. Naughty? That is normal for teenagers. I don't like if my students being so quiet and static. I want they to be happy and comfortable. There's a time when I have to be strict with them, and yeah they know what they should do that time. Of course they have to zip their mouth and let me mumble!!!

I teach 2 classes. Form 2 students, all girls. There are only two Chinese girl in that 2 classes. And you know what? Both of them are really sweet. I really love both of them. Well of course I love all of my students :) For sure, this job make me really tired but yeah I getting started enjoy this job. This is my third weeks of teaching. Last week, my friend called me and asked my bout my practical. We had a long conversation and he also asked me to take my student's pic. Ermm, let me think bout it okay :D Anyway, 12 more weeks to go . Hopefully I can do my best during this practical :) And one more, thanks for your prayer and your wishes guys. God Bless All