Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Selamat tinggal November

Masuk minggu yang ke-3 saya menghabiskan masa di sini. Rakan-rakan yang lain lama sudah bercuti tapi saya masih lagi setia di tempat ini dengan tugas yang masih belum selesai. Last week saya balik beberapa hari untuk menjemput adik-adik saya untuk menemani saya di tempat ini. Thanks God, sekurang-kurangnya ada juga peneman saya di tempat ini. Disebabkan semua orang pergi balik kampung, maka tempat ini sangat sunyi :( Isungguh sepi........

Esok akan masuk bulan Disember. Welcome december! Disember maknanya Natal/ Christmas. Untuk tahun ini, kami sekeluarga merancang untuk menyambut Christmas di kampung mama saya. Jadi, sepanjang Christmas nanti kami akan berada di sana meraikan hari tersebut bersama2 dengan datuk dan nenek saya. Thanks God, sebab berikan kesempatan ini kepada kami untuk terus bercerita tentang Yesus kepada datuk dan nenek. Walaupun belum menerima Yesus dalam kehidupan mereka, saya percaya satu hari nanti pintu hati mereka akan terbuka untuk menerima Dia dalam hati mereka.

Beberapa tahun kebelakangan ini, pekerjaan Tuhan sungguh luar biasa dalam kehidupan keluarga saya. Sukar untuk menceritakan semuanya tapi yang pasti Tuhan itu baik sekali. Walau bagaimana besarpun masalah yang datang dalam keluarga saya, tapi Tuhan itu sentiasa memimpin dan menunjukkan jalan kepada kami. Syukur tidak terhingga kerana Dia lah yang memampukan kami semua untuk terus kuat. Ada beberapa masalah yang memberi impak kepada saya hingga ke hari ini, dan sememangnya bila saya mengingatkan semua sungguh mustahil sekali saya dan keluarga saya dapat menghadapinya jika bukan dengan pertolongan Tuhan.

Memang kita mempunyai kekuatan dan kebijaksanaan sendiri, tapi semuanya itu dari Tuhan kan? Kalau Tuhan tidak memberkati kekuatan atau kebijaksanaan yang ada pada kita, apa kita mampun untuk menggunakannya dengan baik? Saya percaya tidak mungkin. Tapi Bapa kita kan luar biasa sekali baiknya dan kasihnya pada kita. Tidak tergambar dengan apapun.

Apa pun, saya percaya setiap kita punya perjalanan tersendiri dalam kehidupan kita. Yang penting bagaimana kita melihat dan bagaimana kita mengisi setiap langkah kita. Adakah kita akan berlalu pergi dan tergesa2 mencari apa yang kita belum capai atau kita berjalan dan menikmati setiap perjalanan kita dengan penuh syukur dan menghadapi apa yang ada di depan kita dengan sukacita dan kerendahan hati?

Selamat tinggal November, Goodbye November. Welcome December :)

Monday, November 21, 2011

Remember...


Remember, there's only one place the enemy cannot find you. There's only one place where opposition cannot steal from you. There's only one true place of safety and rest for your soul, and that is in the arms of Jesus. Know that He loves you, and He is ready to receive you when you call on His name!

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Skyscraper



You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper

P/S: I'm so tired today but God keep giving me strength so I that I can finish my works. God is good. (*^.^*) Good night all!

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

Thank You

"TUHAN, ENGKAU TUHAN yang LUAR BIASA.. ENGKAU TUHAN yang AJAIB.. ENGKAU yang berkata: kesusahan sehari cukuplah untuk sehari dan esok ada kesusahannya sendiri, tapi kami tahu kesusahan hari ini TUHAN tolong hari ini juga, karena ENGKAU TUHAN yang tidak pernah terlambat MENOLONG kami. ENGKAU TUHAN yang MENGERTI semua keberadaan kami anak-anak-MU. Berikan pada kami ROH HIKMAT, WAHYU dan PENGERTIAN. Ajari kami TUHAN jadi PELAKU FIRMAN-MU dan hidup dalam KEBENARAN-MU dan bertindak sesuai dengan apa yang TUHAN MAU. Terima kasih TUHAN YESUS, kami berikan segala KEMULIAAN hanya bagi-MU karena semua asalnya dari pada-MU dan hanya ENGKAU PRIBADI Satu-Satu-NYA yang LAYAK terima semua PENGAGUNGAN dan KEKAGUMAN kami.. Di dalam Nama TUHAN YESUS .. Amin."


Friday, October 28, 2011

Wish You Were Here



I'm not big fan of Avril Lavigne but really love this song. This is song I can really relate. Remind me of my BFF :) Wish they were here!!!

Saturday, October 8, 2011

Bla bla bla...

Suddenly I miss my home very much :( my bed, my room, my books and all of my stuff. Trying very hard to convince myself that I will be OK as long I didn't let myself cry. I believe all of us have these feelings...How can I explain this feeling to you? Sometimes, I just feel that I really stupid to let my self being so strong for too long until one level I can't stand any more. And at that level, I'm just too weak to stand up again. So, the best things I can do is sit there. Sit and let my mind fly away. Pretend that nothing ever happen to myself, and try to find my starting point again. I guess that is ordinary. When suddenly someone like me will feel very down and trying to find herself again. It's not because she is failed. It's just because she need sometimes to rest and find her strength again. So wake up Wilder! You are strong and yes, you can deal with these. All of this thought are useless!

Life and Happiness.

Life isn't always we want it to be. What matters is we live with good intentions and give happiness to those who matter most to us.

Sunday, September 18, 2011

What are Words



Yes, what are words if you really don't mean them. I listened for this song few days ago, and yes I really shocked why I never listen to this song before. Such a overwhelmed and really touching song.

Friday, August 26, 2011

Home Sweet Home :D

I'm home. Home is a place where you can find true love, precious love from family :) And today, my family welcome me home with LOVE. Owh, how can someone hate to be home!

Monday, August 22, 2011

Surrender!

Puji Tuhan, hampir berlalu sudah bulan Ogos dan kiranya tidak lama lagi kira akan memasuki bulan September. Lebih daripada separuh perjalanan dalam 2011 kita sudah lalui. Jadi, adakah kita masing-masing sudah bersedia membuat refleksi kita sepanjang perjalanan kita pada 2011. Perjalanan yang bermula pada awal 2011 agak mencabar bagi saya sendiri. Mula-mula menjejakkan kaki pada awal 2011, membuatkan saya begitu fokus pada pekerjaan sehingga kadang-kadang mengabaikan diri sendiri dan akhirnya membuatkan saya lupa betapa pentingnya untuk menyayangi diri sendiri terlebih dahulu sebelum saya harus fokus pada benda lain.

Langkah demi langkah, akhirnya ada suatu masa saya kembali terduduk dan mencari di mana kesilapan saya. Lantas, saya temukan bahawa saya terlalu mementingkan orang lain lebih daripada diri sendiri. Nah! itulah kelemahan yang utama saya lakukan. Puji Tuhan, Tuhan punya cara menyedarkan saya bahawa saya perlu menyayangi diri sendiri dulu sebelum saya boleh mengutamakan orang lain dalam kehidupan saya. Ya, begitu Tuhan sentiasa bekerja dalam kehidupan kita. Dan ya, cara terbaik adalah menyerahkan diri kita kepada Tuhan pada saat kita benar-benar tidak punya kekuatan. Tuhan begitu rindu untuk memulihkan kita dan memberikan kekuatan pada kita. Itulah yang terjadi pada saya. Bukan kekuatan saya sendiri melainkan kekuatan daripada Tuhan. Kecil besar yang Tuhan berikan saya belajar untuk menghargai semuanya.

P/S: Biar apapun yang berlaku, yang pertama harus kita fikirkan ialah Tuhan. Psalm 32:8 (I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go) Tuhan akan sentiasa membimbing kita pada saat kita menyerahkan total hidup kita pada Tuhan kerana itulah janjiNya :) Tuhan memberkati!


Wednesday, August 10, 2011

I'm still alive!

For some points I feel that my life turned upside down this lately. I tried to be more positive but sometimes I just can't process what happen around me. Things may look very hard but I tell you I still can rise! Yes, I thanks Lord for giving such a great strength everyday. Without Him, I might fell to the ground. But I still can trust Him. I'm still alive.

Friday, August 5, 2011

Time bring all things to pass

To everything there is a season, A time for every purpose under heaven.... A time to weep, and a time to laugh, A time to mourn, and a time to dance.

We all have scars.
Even after we've healed from our betrayals, mishaps, and suffering; scars remain.
But as we run our fingers along their rough edges; may we not feel bitterness or self-pity or guilt,
may we feel redeemed.

Sunday, July 24, 2011

I Lend You My Shoulder

Menerima berita tentang kehilangan seseorang amatlah susah untuk diterima apatah lagi kalau individu tersebut adalah orang yang kita sayangi. The most important person in our life, suddenly this person leave us in memories. My friend SMS me yesterday that her mother passed away yesterday from cancer. I just can't say anything. Mengambil masa yang lama bagi saya untuk membalas SMS daripada rakan tersebut. Dan akhirnya barulah saya punya kekuatan untuk mencari kata-kata untuk rakan tersebut. "Be strong" Cuma itu yang mampu saya katakan.

Melihat semula kekuatan yang rakan saya miliki di saat dia memberitakan tentang pemergian ibunya adalah satu yang sangat menyentuh peribadi saya. Dapat saya rasakan bukan mudah untuk memberitakan kematian seseorang kepada orang lain lebih-lebih lagi bila orang yang meninggal tersebut adalah orang yang rapat dengan kita. Dan ya, rakan saya ini punya kekuatan yang sukar untuk dicari oleh individu biasa. Sudah tentu dia mengambil masa yang lama mengumpul semua kekuatan bagi menghadapi semua ini.

Beberapa minggu terpaksa bertungkus lumus menjaga ibunya di hospital dengan harapan bahawa miracle akan terjadi, namun akhirnya Tuhan punya alasan tersendiri bagi semua yang terjadi. Syukur, Tuhan memberikan kekuatan yang luar biasa kepada keluarga rakan saya ini. Saya melihat bagaimana dia menaruh sepenuhnya kepercayaan kepada Tuhan di saat dia menghadapi saat getir ini. Dalam kepenatan dan kelesuan dia tetap percaya kepada Tuhan. Tidak pernah sesekali luntur harapan tersebut. Dan setiap kali saya MSG bertanyakan khabar sudah tentu dia akan berkata "Please pray for my mother".

Di saat ini hanya kata-kata dorongan dan doa yang mampu saya berikan. Be strong and believe that everything happen for a reason friend. All I can do right now is lending my shoulder. Di saat kesedihan dan kehilangan begini, saya percaya semua kekuatan yang diberikan itu datangnya dari Tuhan and yes "I Lend You My Shoulder". If you ever need me, I just want you to know that you can find me. You know where to find me. God Bless you and family.

Saturday, July 16, 2011

Kem ISCF Kapit, Julai 2011

Thanks Lord, so far Kem ISCF berjalan dengan lancar. Sepanjang Kem Iscf dijalankan terlalu banyak perkara yang saya pelajari. Baik dari firman Tuhan mahupun semua yang berlaku sepanjang kem tersebut. Penglibatan saya kali ke-2 dalam kem ISCF di Kapit kali ini sungguh memberi banyak makna. Ya, sudah tentu saya mengenali lebih ramai orang dan sedikit sebanyak memberi peluang kepada saya untuk mengenali lebih rapat orang yang tidak saya kenali selama ini.

Anyway, yang lebih menyeronokkan melihat ramai pelajar yang terlibat. Pelajar yang tidak pernah terlibat selama ini tiba-tiba terbuka hati untuk turut serta. Hopefully, semua anak-anak muda yang mengikuti kem ini dapat menemukan erti sebenar mereka mengikuti kem ini. Bukan sahaja setakat menambahkan ilmu tetapi yang paling penting agar anak-anak muda yang terlibat dapat mengenali Tuhan dengan lebih intim. Belajar takut dan sentiasa hormat kepada Tuhan, belajar untuk berjalan dengan Tuhan. Semuanya memerlukan pengorbanan dan komitmen besar dari kita, tapi yang pasti jika kita membuka hati kita untuk Tuhan, tiada apa yang mustahil.

Segala pujian, hormat dan syukur hanya untuk Tuhan. Saya pasti, jika tanpa Tuhan, semua aktiviti sepanjang kem Iscf ini tidak akan berjalan dengan lancar. Hanya dengan campur tangan Tuhan barulah semuanya berjalan dengan lancar. Thanks Lord kerana telah campur tangan dalam semua aktiviti baik dari mula, pertengahan dan akhir aktiviti. Haleluyah!

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Happy Birthday friend :)


Dear friend,

Do you still remember how we used to meet? We have been together for many years. We've been through all the joys and the sad moments together. I am proud to be your friend. And for sure, I really thanks God for giving me such a beautiful and wonderful friend like you. I've been watching you crying, I've been watching you when you was down. For almost a long time, I was there with you and I am glad that I can be with you as long as you need me. So far, I believe even though we are not in the same place but we always there for each others. So, don't you ever feel that you are alone when you are in trouble. Just remember that all you have to do is call me or sms me. At least I know something happen to you and I will try to listen to you.

All of us are in our own path right now. And let me tell you, that no matter what happen, be still! Don't be afraid to face something new in your life. Remember it's not only you, but God always there be with you. I am sure, He never let you down. Well, you are the greatest person that I have know. So believe yourself that you are always special. Yes! you are special because you are my friend. I believe we met because of God's will. So, today in this special day, I love to wish you "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" friend. May God always with you and bless your journey. For I believe, God never let you down because He always prepare something great for you. Happy birthday DIJAH :)

Sunday, July 10, 2011

At The end of the day

At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing, where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, is usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we've chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. No matter how much we hurt them, the people that are still with you at the end of the day - those are the ones worth keeping. And sure, sometimes close can be too close. But sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need.

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

Which Path?

I just want they to know that "There is no such thing as fate, you choose which path you walk down. There is nothing dragging you down a path you haven't chosen. Everything happens because of the choices you made." Hopefully, one day they can look back at me and talk bout it again. I don't want they to choose the wrong path. Being an adult is not easy as they thought....

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Deeper Than You Can Imagine

I often notice that most of people always or should I say "like" to use someone's past against someone they don't like. Do you think it is something to be proud of when you use someone's past against them? I don't think so! If you ever do that, well SHAME on you! You will know how hurt to be in that situation someday when you'll take their place. Don't ever use someone's past against them.You're just reminding them of the mistakes they made back then.If you watch their facial expression carefully,then you'll see the hurt in their eyes as they reminisce everything that happened. Never use emotion as a weapon,it strikes deeper than you can imagine.

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

Selamat Hari Gawai. Happy Gawai 2011

Life is so beautiful. On this special day, I would like to wish all my Dayak friends a very Happy Gawai. Enjoy your Gawai and please don't get drunk and drive . "Leave your car at home, use your head instead don't get drunk, don't get dumb, don't get dead." :P

Monday, May 16, 2011

Happy Teacher's Day

To his/her students
A teacher is always true!
We are fortunate to have a teacher
As wonderful loving and caring as you!
Happy Teachers Day!

As we busy wishing all of our teachers "Happy Teacher's Day", I think it is not hard to remember who is our favorite teacher. I am sure, all of us still clearly remember which teacher really touch our life until we can be who we are today. And in honor of teacher's day, I would like to thanks my teachers wherever you are. Thank you for being a great TEACHER for us!

Sunday, April 17, 2011

Have a blessed day.

Happy Sunday all! What a great GREAT day :) I don't have a " to do" list for today. All I want to do is finish all of my works and then get a good rest. After 2 weeks without any weekend so, here I am enjoying every minutes of my weekend. Thanks God :) I can rest peacefully even though I still thinking about my works. Election for Sarawak just over. I don't want to talk about it. Have to admit that I "Hate" politics. Anyway, I can't wait for the next holidays. Goshhh, I really needs a holiday. Guys, enjoy your day ya :) God blessed!

Friday, April 1, 2011

Beautiful in His Time

“Some people say it's late, but I always say when God paints his masterpiece, it'll be done at the right time and it will come. We need cold nights, we need some frost to bring it on.” (William Wilson)

Thursday, March 17, 2011

Red River Valley



This song is so beautiful. It's remind me of my childhood. Such a sweet memories to remember. I admit that I am a country girl. I was born as a country girl and still the blood flow in my heart. Nothing can change this :) Oh my, how I miss my country life.

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Saturday, February 26, 2011

Goodnight....

I have no reasons to hate this place. Sometimes, I just cannot accept that I'm here. It's not because I cannot fit myself in this place. Its just sometimes that I am so tired with everything that happened lately =.="~ I'm so tired now ZzzZzzz!

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Happy Chinese New Year!

It's nice to be home!!! Setelah sebulan berada jauh dari rumah, finally here I am! I'm home :) And yes, I admit that I didn't blog for 1 month. Quite busy with my work so I have to save my times for my works. Did I mentioned about my works? Thanks God because everything is going well for this month. And hopefully everything will be fine for coming days. Anyway, Happy Chinese New Year to all of you that celebrate CNY :) God Bless All!

Saturday, January 1, 2011